Confused...

Wow I havnt been on here in a while... Not alot has been going on lately, I now have 3 letters from David and so far I dont think hes gottin any of mine :(. My mom told me that the days would be going by faster and easier, when it seems like the days are getting longer and harder. Its been 100 degrees for a straight week now and I hate it, Hopefully it will rain sometime soon! Yesterday I put on my facebook that it's to hot to come outside during the day but then at night you cant go outside without a ton of mosquito spray on! :( I'm ready to move out of Arkansas, but if I do then it will be with my boyfriend :). We have been thinking and talking about marriage and I really hope we do. I love him so much and people tell me that military life is better when your married! He comes home from AIT in December so who knows whats going to happen :P I miss him so much that everyday that goes by just makes me want to be with him more. The thing my mom tells me is that she wants me to go through school and get my schooling in, and I dont blame her I would want the same thing for my kids. But if David ends up going to Germany I dont want to be without him because theres no telling the next time I will see him! ugh so I dont know what to do...

Moms wearing boyfriends clothing!

This is so weird! Ok I was in the kitchen doing somthing and in walked mom, but she was wearing some familiar clothing.... It was Davids pajama pants and a shirt from his church. I was standing there looking at my mom and she was like "what are you looking at"? Then I was like "Your wearing Davids clothes"! I dont know why I think it's weird but I dont wanna see my mom wear my boyfriends clothing. So now I have to put his clothes in a bag so she cant get them :(.

Missing him.

Here lately it seems like Im all by myself in this world. My boyfriend has been gone for four days now, and I must say that its getting better as the days go by. Many people tell me "trust me it will get better" and at first there was no way I was going to believe them. The day David left it felt way worse then any breakup or death. It was like a part of me was gone. Today marks our ten month anniversary and your probebly thinking wow thats not very long...well to me it is. Things are starting to get better for example, now I can fold his clothes without tearing up, I can sleep in my bed again and etc... He called me a couple days ago letting me know that sometime next week I should get his mailing address. So whenever I get it I'll be able to give it to everybody. I wish he could call more, I understand that he's probebly busy and wont have time for calling. But I'm new to this 'bing married to the military' life so half the time I dont know whats going on. TaTa for now!